Four years ago Tessa made one of my biggest dreams come true, becoming a mother. But at the same time I started diving into my 2nd biggest dream of becoming an artist. Can these two exist together?
Becoming a mother was everything and so much more than I could ever imagine. It was wild and sweet, calm and painful, colourful and monotone, it was everything…but where was I?
In between the sleepless nights, stolen minutes and chaos, I search for the emerging artist., but she was gone…
I mourned, fought and struggled to try and get her back and then I gave up.
I left her behind, took what I had left and jumped into a new world and at the bottom…there she was…staring right at me. And I realised, she was never lost, she was re-born. She was never emerging, because she already was. She was I and I am her. We are together.
So I got of my high chair and put my paper on the floor, I exchanged my perfectionism and perceptions for the freedom of little hands leading me to explore.
I stared my fear in the eye and it became my confirmation.
Together we will grow and learn, together we will create, push each other and become.
And now, we have welcomed 2 more hands, more lines, more ideas, more fear…and most of all more love.

May this artwork done by myself, Tessa ( 4 years ) and Lucas ( 2 years ), make you look your fear in the eye and say maybe, just maybe what I thought was holding me back, was setting me free.